No job after all
Short version is that the person who told me I had it, wasn't the one who actually decides if I have it. Don't really want to get into a long version. Bleh. Back to looking.
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Hired!
I got a job! Two week contract thing, which is fine with me, I'd rather do temp/contract for a while to get used to things. Start next monday, copying/updating a training manual from a course that hasn't been taught for 25 years, heh.
Thought that would be the most memorable part of the day, then got on the bus home and saw paramedics arriving. Someone was either having heart problems or drug issues (the paramedics couldn't tell) so about 10 paramedics came on the bus trying to figure it out. Eventually they took him away in an ambulance, but after a lot of arguing about where to go, because apparently most hospitals are closed to ambulances today (full I guess?) Seemed like he was going to be ok (or at least like they decided it probably wasn't a heart attack) but I'll never know of course.
Weather is weird.... thunderstorm in january? Not normal here in Wisconsin. And I think it's gonna get cold and snow again tonight.
But yeah, my first job starts monday so I guess I'm making progress!
Thought that would be the most memorable part of the day, then got on the bus home and saw paramedics arriving. Someone was either having heart problems or drug issues (the paramedics couldn't tell) so about 10 paramedics came on the bus trying to figure it out. Eventually they took him away in an ambulance, but after a lot of arguing about where to go, because apparently most hospitals are closed to ambulances today (full I guess?) Seemed like he was going to be ok (or at least like they decided it probably wasn't a heart attack) but I'll never know of course.
Weather is weird.... thunderstorm in january? Not normal here in Wisconsin. And I think it's gonna get cold and snow again tonight.
But yeah, my first job starts monday so I guess I'm making progress!
Update
Talked to someone at Manpower about temp job placement, took some tests for basic office skills. They didn't give any feedback about how I did, but surprisingly I think I did worst on Word out of all of them. Don't think I did horribly on anything though. So hopefully I'll be able to get some work exposure with some temp jobs pretty soon.
Meds seem to be helping my mood overall, but I'm not sure how much they're helping with anxiety.
Sorry this entry is a little just the facts, but I wanted to make sure I at least keep posting.
Meds seem to be helping my mood overall, but I'm not sure how much they're helping with anxiety.
Sorry this entry is a little just the facts, but I wanted to make sure I at least keep posting.
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Going out barefoot with no coat for a smoke probably isn't the best thing for a cold, but Nightwish came on on my ipod, and standing there watching the smoke curl into the grey sky under a balcony safe from the rain, staring at the pines was such a lovely moment I'm glad I did. I thought shuffle was going to ruin it, but Moi Dix Mois came on, also perfect for staring into the lovely gloom.
Still no work, but I'm on Lexapro now, have my ativan to keep anxiety under control, and have a therapist who's open to treat my multiplicity as a strength instead of a medical condition. Still hard to have a lot of hope but I think things are looking way better. I don't think working will be that bad for my anxiety, but the panic attacks at the idea of an interview are still getting in the way. Had an interview last month and after three days of panic leading up to it just couldn't go.
I'm going to try to start updating again, so hello to everyone who still follows! (Which here on dreamwidth is barely anyone since I've barely used it, lol.)
Not doing an official crosspost, but this is also on my LJ.
Still no work, but I'm on Lexapro now, have my ativan to keep anxiety under control, and have a therapist who's open to treat my multiplicity as a strength instead of a medical condition. Still hard to have a lot of hope but I think things are looking way better. I don't think working will be that bad for my anxiety, but the panic attacks at the idea of an interview are still getting in the way. Had an interview last month and after three days of panic leading up to it just couldn't go.
I'm going to try to start updating again, so hello to everyone who still follows! (Which here on dreamwidth is barely anyone since I've barely used it, lol.)
Not doing an official crosspost, but this is also on my LJ.