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Going out barefoot with no coat for a smoke probably isn't the best thing for a cold, but Nightwish came on on my ipod, and standing there watching the smoke curl into the grey sky under a balcony safe from the rain, staring at the pines was such a lovely moment I'm glad I did. I thought shuffle was going to ruin it, but Moi Dix Mois came on, also perfect for staring into the lovely gloom.

Still no work, but I'm on Lexapro now, have my ativan to keep anxiety under control, and have a therapist who's open to treat my multiplicity as a strength instead of a medical condition. Still hard to have a lot of hope but I think things are looking way better. I don't think working will be that bad for my anxiety, but the panic attacks at the idea of an interview are still getting in the way. Had an interview last month and after three days of panic leading up to it just couldn't go.

I'm going to try to start updating again, so hello to everyone who still follows! (Which here on dreamwidth is barely anyone since I've barely used it, lol.)

Not doing an official crosspost, but this is also on my LJ.